Posted on Selasa, 02 November 2010 @ 0:28:10oleh Hanan
afizam menulis A MOTHER'S LETTER!
My mom only had one eye. I hated her... she was
such an embarrassment.
My mom ran a small shop at a flea market. She
collected little weeds and
such to sell...anything for the money we needed,
she was such an
There was this one-day during elementary school. I
remember that it was
field day, and my mom came. I was so
embarrassed. How could she do this to
me? I threw her a hateful look and ran out.
The next day at school..."Your mom only has one
eye?!" and they taunted me.
I wished that my mom would just disappear from
this world so I said to my
mom, "Mom, why don't you have the other eye?!
If you're only going to make me a laughing
stock,why don't you just dia?!"
My mom did not respond.
I guess I felt a little bad, but at the same time, it
felt good to think
that I had said what I'di wanted to say all this time..
Maybe it was because my mom hadn't punished
me, but I didn't think that I
had hurt her feelings very badly.
That night...I woke up, and went to the kitchen to
get a glass of water.
My mom was crying there, so quietly, as if she
was afraid that she might
wake me. I took a look at her, and then turned
Because of the thing I had said to her earlier, there
was something pinching
at me in the corner of my heart. Even so, I hated
my mother who was crying
out of her one eye.
So I told myself that I would grow up and become
successful, because I hated
my one-eyed mom and our desperate poverty.
Then I studied really hard. I left my mother and
came to Seoul and studied,
and got accepted in the Seoul University with all
the confidence I had.
Then, I got married. I bought a house of my own.
Then I had kids, too.
Now I'm living happily as a successful man. I like it
here because it's a
place that doesn't remind me of my mom.
This happiness was getting bigger and bigger,
when someone unexpected
came to see me
"What?! Who's this?" ..
It was my mother...Still with her one eye.
It felt as if the whole sky was falling apart on me.
My little girl ran
away, scared of my mom's eye.
And I asked her, "Who are you?". I don't know
you!!!" as if trying to make
that real. I screamed at her "How dare you come
to my house and scare my
" GET OUT OF HERE! NOW!!!"
And to this, my mother quietly answered, "oh, I'm
so sorry. I may have
gotten the wrong address," and she disappeared.
Thank goodness... she doesn't recognize me. I
was quite relieved.
I told myself that I wasn't going to care, or think
about this for the rest
of my life.
Then a wave of relief came upon me...one day, a
letter regarding a school
reunion came to my house. I lied to my wife saying
that I was going on a
After the reunion, I went down to the old shack,
that I used to call a
just out of curiosity there, I found my mother fallen
on the cold ground.
But I did not shed a single tear. She had a piece
of paper in her hand....
it was a letter to me.
My son...I think my life has been long enough now.
And.. I won't visit Seoul
anymore... but would it be too much to ask if I
wanted you to come visit me
once in a while?
I miss you ! so much.
And I was so glad when I heard you were coming
for the reunion.
But I decided not to go to the school....
I'm sorry that I have only one eye, and I was an
embarrassment for you.
You see, when you were very little, you got into an
accident, and lost
As a mother, I couldn't stand watching you having
to grow up with only one
eye... so I gave you mine...
I was so proud of my son that he was seeing a
whole new world for me,
in my place, with that eye.
I was never upset at you for anything you did. The
couple times that you
were angry with me.
I thought to myself, "it's because he loves me. "
I miss the times when you were still young around
I miss you so much. I love you.
You mean the world to me!